Today it rained. It was cold but not too cold. I can't wait until summer is really here and flourishing. The sun always seems to make me smile.
I want to see the flowers smile, the rivers dance and I want to feel the lush grass between my toes.
I feel so much. I haven't felt like this before. I have always hidden my emotions and within the past year they have emerged in a very traumatic way, but as I have gotten more used to them and learned about who I really was, I am more comfortable.
With the sadness, frustration, anxiety that came with discovering my feelings and who I am really as a person I have obtained a great sense of the world and life. I feel so much more aware, and enlightened and just like my eyes open that much more, and the colors and sounds are that much more brilliant.
I feel like I finally am starting to understand why things are the way they are, and what is meant to happen, and that you must let things run their course and you must just be. You just have to exist and some things will come to you when you least expect them to.
I feel very much in tune with the things that had been enigmatic to me for years. I feel like I am finally becoming an adult and the kind of person I have always dreamed of becoming.
It truly is a beautiful feeling.
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